I have the sweetest baby in the world. He is constantly smiling and laughing and he makes my world so much brighter. He hates going to sleep sometimes. It drives me crazy when I want to take a nap and he refuses to close his little eyes...and then, when I feel like I am going to die because I am so tired, he smiles. He smiles at me and I think to myself that he is soo much more fun than sleeping. Haha...I would so much rather be playing with my silly boy.
He is getting so big and I hate that one day I am not going to be able to cradle him in my arms and snuggle him up tight. He isnt always going to let me do that. Therefore, I am going to treasure every snuggle, every laugh, every moment I have with my boy. I am lucky. I am blessed.
I have been trying to work on some issues I am having. It could be lack of sleep, but I have been so tense. Unfortunately, I have been getting mad over the stupidest things or snapping about nothing. It really is ridiculous. My anxiety also feels like it is getting out of hand. When I do snap or get upset, no matter how small of an issue it was, I feel like all is lost. I hate it. I have such a hard time climbing over these small bumps. I just want to be more patient and I want to be nicer. I have to start putting in more effort to being better to my husband too. I married an excellent man and sometimes, I just dont give him the love he deserves. He might drive me crazy sometimes, but he is the most incredible man in the world. I have to teach myself to bridle my tongue and to choose my battles.
I really could use some help being better...sooo give me advice on how YOU control yourself when you get upset. I need some motivation! Thanks and I look forward to the feedback.
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Couldn't we all be better? DO not be too hard on yourself. You got a great man but he got a great woman too
I think the hardest thing about being a Mom is the lack of sleep. My advice is Date Night...I am sure you have heard it before and to be honest it was never a priority before we would get out when we could and were usually lucky enough to have family around to watch the kids. But I have came to realize that it can be vital to a happy marriage. I don't see Michael sometimes for more than a hour some days...I now live for Date night. It can be hard with one because he is sooo cute and you just think that bringing him a long will be good as long as your together....Get a babysitter.. pay if you have to it will not be a waste of money!!! Go have fun with each other! Sure you will talk about the baby and the other mundane things of life and that's okay. I think you will find that it is a lot easier to be nicer to your husband...some date nights will be fight nights but others will remind you why you married him in the first place. I wish we made more of an effort earlier on than we did I know that it something that will strengthen the both of you.
He's definitely a cute one! I am excited to see him in a few weeks.
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