Dazed and Confused...

Sometimes life happens...and there is no explanation. This is not supposed to be a blog to make people feel bad for me, so please do not read it and feel sorry for me. This is what's up. I fell in love...I spent everyday of the semester so far with a boy and he it caught me off guard. I went to meet his parents on Valentine's Day weekend and had so much fun with them. There was no indication of anything wrong. He adored me, so did his family. Well, I started noticing something was a little off...Not that we weren't happy, but that he wasn't treating me normal. I told him he wasn't being as sweet as he usually was and he started thinking about it and told me something was off with him, but it wasn't me or our relationship. He thought we might need a break, but his definition of a break was us still be together but not see each other. I thought that might be ok, but I hated not seeing him so I told him I would rather just be his friend than not see him at all. We decided to date other people. It hurts a little...a lot. I miss him. I am good though. I know that either way, things are going to work out. I really don't know what is going to happen with him, but I know that I can learn from the situation...I still am lost though. Everything was perfect...too perfect, I guess. My friends all think we will get back together, but even if we don't I know that there is something that is going to make both of us happy. I know that over time it will be easier and things will fall into place. It just takes time. I wish I had my family here to comfort me, but I have Becky. Meg is here for me too and she can make me laugh in any circumstance. Life is funny...and more confusing than I would have ever thought. Well, I better start studying for my mid-terms....but just a thought for everyone, when God shuts a door, he opens a window...and that is the attitude I need to have. Have a wonderful day!! Love all yall TONS.... -Chare

Happy Valentine's Day!!

Valentine's Day is my favorite holiday. I love the decorations and all the fun and cute stuff people do. I am going to be spending this Valentine's Day with Robert in Boise. Umm....weird. I can't say that I saw this one coming. Last night, Rob was really anxious to see me. He kept texting me asking me when I was going to be home. I got home and texted him and got no reply. He doesnt get reception at his apartment, so I figured he just hadnt got my text. Becky came over while I was waiting and I hung out with her for a bit and she told me that she saw Rob at my complex hometeaching. He texted me and told me that he was with his roommate hometeaching and would be over in 15 min. I had been home about an hour and finally he showed up with his roommie. Well, my roommates were in the laundry room doing laundry and they insisted that I come out and talk to me that it was really important. So, I went out and as we were walking past the cars, I looked over and my car had been heart attacked. I looked at my apartment and Rob was watching me as I found it. Nobody has ever done that for me! It was sooo cute....

I Should be doing Homework...

Sometimes I find myself at the library, sick of studying, on my blogger. Let's see here...What is new in my life? Well, I went to the doctor because I have been feeling really dizzy and light headed and I had some tests run and the doctor came back and told me that I was anemic! Weird!! He even asked if I was a vegetarian...Umm, anyone who knows me or my family knows that we LOVE meat...and by meat I mean RED MEAT! He put me on an iron supplement and it has helped a little, but I have been so light headed still. Sometimes, I even black out a little bit, but it's never for too long. I am all good though. It's probably an early onset of old age! Ha!!
Valentines day is right around the corner and it just so happens to be my very favorite holiday! I love the decorations and I guess I like the spirit! This Valentine's day I will be in Boise. I have no idea what I am doing, but I know Rob has made some sort of plans. I hate surprises though!! I was making him a quilt and when we were ready to sew the fabric, the sewing machine was broken!! I really got so down about it because I was already in a hurry to get it done and this put a major damper on things. I will get it all sorted out though! I will blog about the Boise trip when I get back.
Well, I better get back to Chemistry, but I hope everyone is staying focused on their goals...Thank Heavenly Father for all the great things you have and tell the ones you love that you do! Have a great day! I miss and love all of yall!

Meg...

Megan Michelle Dunlap is my best friend. When we were younger, it was her optimism that made me want to be a happy person too. Megan and I lived an hour away from eachother, but somehow we managed weekend trips to see eachother. We decided on BYU-Idaho together and were roommates our first year of college and will be again this summer. I just wanted to write a little blog to express what she means to me. I can not count the number of times we have laughed until we have cried or cried until we have laughed. She has always been there for me and I wouldnt trade any of our times for the world. She knows everything about me and loves me still the same! I believe that she is one of the most perfect people in the world. There have been times when I have been stubborn and difficult and 4'11'' Megan has put me in my place. I really cant describe how lucky I am to have Little Megs as my best friend. I know I may use the term best friend lightly, or maybe I did in the past, but a friendship like hers is once in a lifetime. We balance eachother out and probably do have more fun than we should. I would do anything in the world for her and I know she would do the same. We were complete opposites when we met, but now, we are 2 peas in a pod....we are like mac-n-cheese.
Life wouldnt be as much fun without my best friend. Treasure the friends you have and when you can, let them know that you love them and you are blessed to have them.

You Cant Have it All...

Earlier I was talking with a friend from my Chem class. I was telling her that if you are really succeeding in one thing, you are probably lacking in other areas. Well, I am doing really well in all my classes, except for Chem. It takes so much out of me. I am not going to complain about it though because I am so happy about life right now. I am where I need to be spiritually, Im crazy about a good boy, and my grades are great in my other classes. I am not going to let my happiness by based on one class. I will be done with it in April anyway. I miss home like crazy....I really wish some fam could come visit me here. I am really lucky to have Beck here though. She takes care of me...in a way, she is my angel. Next semester I am going to be her neighbor. It will be fun. Well...Let's see, what's new with me...
I have heard or learned a few things lately that I really appreciated and I want to share with you.
-If you wanna get something done, make a promise to yourself and don't break it!
-You might get off track, but once you realize it, prioritize and make sure you are putting the important things first.
-Realize that you are full of potential and live up to that potential!!
Ha, something I thought of the other day was, "If a tiny seed can grow in to a huge oak tree, then I can do chem!" Haha!
Life is tough, but we are so blessed to have it...
If you are really smart you may lack in other areas and just because you are really good with people doesnt mean you will be good with books...haha, Its all about how much work you put in.
I love yall!!

My B-Friend....bahaha

Okay, so I usually date a lot...I think last semester I went on tons of dates every week with tons of different boys. It's kinda my style....Well, this semester was different. I started off not wanting to date any. I was just kind of sick of the dating games. Let me tell you my crazy story...
I tried the whole break to sell my contract and I thought it was sold a few times, but every time something came up. I just decided that maybe I was suppose to live in Colonial again. I just went with it and my first sunday in church, a member of the bishopric stood on the pulpit and I felt like he was speaking directly to me when he said, "You are right where you are suppose to be." It was so amazing to have that confirmation. That same Sunday, I was called to be FHE Coordinator right after sacrament meeting. I accepted the calling and I really wanted to be the best I could be. I spent a lot of time praying on what families should be put together and so forth. When it came down to picking my family, one apartment really stuck out to me...not because they were the cutest, but there was just something telling me that we were suppose to be grouped. Well, I picked the Dad and he was just the one that stuck out to me. His name was Robert Dilgard...this is where I turn into a creeper. Megan came over and we were messing around on facebook and looked him up. We fell in love with his pictures! He was so cute and looked like a lot of fun. I saw who he was in person and thought he was so weird...not in a bad way though. Ha, I totally forgot about thinking he was so cute and fun-looking. I asked to get their numbers because they were my FHE brothers and I sent them all a text so they would have mine. Well, Robert thought I was trying to get his number and thought I only texted him. Nope. Ever since that night though, we have talked every night on the phone, gone on tons of dates, and I told him I would be his girlfriend...Now, I like this boy so much and we have soo much fun together!! We seriously laugh all the time and it's just fun. I dont know where it will go, but I know as for right now, I like how things are and he is so great! Welp, now you all know!! ;)

For Kara and Amy

I was just looking through my blogs and I wrote a blog for my sisters not too long ago...Well, I decided that I needed to write one for my other two sisters...ha, the ones my brothers picked out for me!
Amy Marie...
Amy is such a good listener. She communicates to well and I love talking to Amy because it is totally comfortable. I love that she is opinionated and says what she thinks. I feel like I can trust whatever she says. I also like how easy going she is. It is always go with the flow with her. I think too often people get caught up in the craziness of life, but not Amy. When Amy first came into our family I wasn't sure how I first felt about her. For some reason, I thought that whoever was marrying into my family should be giving it their all to be accepted. Ha, she was just herself though. I learned a lot from that and I try to be like that too. I want people to know me for me like I see Amy. What you see is what you get. Amy is full of natural beauties and I miss her living so close...oh, and I LOVE LOVE LOVE how she is so brave. In a way, she puts my brother in his place, haha!

Kara Jo
James is my best friend brother. I really feel like I could say anything in the world to him and I know if I ever need to talk, he would listen. Kara Jo married James...ha, bless her heart, he is a crazy one! This is about Kara though, not James. I really got to know Kara this past summer when I lived with her and James for about a month or two before I started school. Kara has such a compassionate heart. She reminds me a lot of myself. She and I can talk about anything and everything. Ha, she reminds me of just another one of my girl friends! Kara dresses so cute and sometimes I swear she looks like she came straight from a magazine page. I appreciate Kara's ambition. She wants to be a photographer and because she loves it so much and puts so much work into it, she will succeed. She is so gentle and kind. Kara is such a wonderful addition to our family!!

I love these two beautiful women and they both inspire me in their own ways. I miss them so much, but I know my family so happy to have them in the great land of the south!! I LOVE YALL!